*Disclaimer: This post is about the subject of religion. I do not want to push others away because of my beliefs. With that being said, if this post moves you in any way, please apply it to your life and your own religion. If you feel compelled to look into Christianity, I encourage you to do so. This post also contains an affiliate link. I do not receive any funds if you use this link to purchase.
I wanted my blog to be about topics like recipes, life stories, parenting, reviews, sports, etc. I intended my blog to be a comfortable spot for everyone to visit. With that being said, there is one topic that I did not intend on including. That is my faith in God. I am a Christian and I don’t hide it. I did not want to include it in my blog because I am still on my journey to having a solid relationship with God. I am focusing on getting closer to him and what His word has to say. I have been reading and writing in my prayer journal since September 1, 2018. I am reading a daily devotional by a well-known Christian located in the bay area; Prophet Rob Sanchez. I first saw him on a recent trip back home to San Jose, California. At the Sunday service, he was the guest speaker and prophesied over me during his sermon. (Yes, it was weird being called on in front of the entire Church). He said that God was telling him that I had given up, that I was waving the white flag. He said that God told him that I surrendered in my life and was giving up, but that I hadn’t waved the checkered flag, but only the white flag in surrender. He wasn’t wrong! I was frustrated with my situation and did not want to deal with it any more. I had given up! I felt like God wasn’t hearing my prayers. Prophet Rob assured me that God heard me and said that my fight isn’t over yet. God has something in store for me, even when I don’t know what it is.
After the service, I went and spoke to Prophet Rob and purchased his book titled, “Life Is Very Good”. I hadn’t noticed that it was a daily devotional, so when I found out, I didn’t want to read it. Normally, I would have put it away and forgotten about it, until one day, years later, found it again. (It is like every single attempt in trying to sit down to read The Bible in its entirety). I just couldn’t do it! Instead of putting it to the side, I decided to read it each day and reflect by writing in my prayer journal. I have done this consistently since September started. Whenever I attempt to do things like this, I only last a week, maybe two, at most.
My intention was to get closer to God, and man did I. I have never heard God speak so clearly to me. Literally, it’s like he is standing right in front of my face screaming at me. I have been feeling something different every single day, for example, I will be angry one day, or doubt myself the next. Every single time I read the daily devotional, the word is exactly what I am feeling. When I sat down today to write a recipe post, my mind just stopped! Not like a distraction stop or writers block, but a literal stop. My mind all of a sudden pressed pause and the only thing that was in my head was “I need to write a post about God.” When this thought came to mind, I just couldn’t do it. I ignored what God was telling me because I wasn’t sure how to include it into my blog. You see, I am still on my own journey with God and because I don’t have the relationship that I want to have with him, I don’t feel like I can speak about what I don’t fully understand. Like I am not worthy of telling others about God, when I have so many questions, and I can’t even get past a few chapters in The Bible. I don’t want to give anyone wrong information or tell them that God said something, when I misunderstood what HE said. I am still not ready, but God is pushing me to do so. I am learning as I go, but I cannot turn my back on what God has in store for my life!
God keeps saying to stop doubting and start doing. Don’t let the fear of your past get in the way. You are not who you were in the past. I was a quitter! I quit reading The Bible after getting frustrated by not understanding, I quit drawing and writing in my journal, and at times, quit going to church. God said to accept the challenge and climb the mountain! If I know one thing about God it is that he has already been on every path that he ever sends us on. HE knows what we can achieve and never gives us something that we can’t handle. This is my mountain that I can’t seem to climb, but I know that God has already conquered the mountain for me, I just need to push to get to the other side. I don’t know who this is supposed to reach, but if that’s you, I’m here to let you know that you are not alone. God is and will always be there for you. All you have to do is reach out to him and He will answer!
If you feel compelled to read this devotional, I encourage you to visit Prophet Rob’s website at the link below:
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